On the eve of my WS201 "Women and Identity" exam, I've realized that I have a bit of a problem with post-modernists. I was reading last semester that I have no "true self", that my admissions of "that's not really me" is actually bullshit, which I agreed with in that who I am to people is who I am, because that is the "truth" most known. What is my "true" self if it cannot be shared with others? Whose truth would my "true self" be? But then tonight I was thinking about the sociological idea of the reflective self, that who I am is composed of how I see others viewing me; I am a composite of other people's "Alysia". So, if my true self is how others see me, and my idea of self is just a composite of these views, I have no self to be true. There is no Alysia to be true to, nor any "me" to profess as distinct. If I want to change my "self" all I have to do is change who gets to perceive me. I have no self, just people around me. So, what is the problem with post-structuralists? Well, how can I deconstruct a system which I have no interest in as I now have no sense of self? The reason why people want to change the system -- whether that be capitalist, patriarchal or caucasian -- is because it threatens their self, what they want their self to do. Take that self away, and why deconstruct at all?